Vacation and Disappointment.

I've been on vacation this week, which has been lovely, but I'm not sure I'm a good vacationer.  I love the idea of vacation, but I never seem to enjoy it as much as other people seem to, and I just end up anxious to get back to my regular routine.  That being said (which is a horrible phrase really, and one of my pet peeves), this week has definitely been relaxing.  Mostly I did nothing, a lot of reading, some puttering around my house (my favorite), swimming, sleeping, watching movies, and I visited my sister at her resort near Disney and lounged in the lazy river pool all day.  I'm sun-kissed and happy.  So I guess it was a good vaca. 

I've been thinking a lot about disappointment this week as well.  Kaleigh did something (which I won't go into, but let's just say it's nothing I haven't done in my misspent youth), and I was feeling so disappointed in her and in her idea of appropriate choices that I responded harshly to the situation.  Then my mom called and told me that she has cancer again--this time in her throat.  We knew she was having a biopsy and that she had colon cancer a year ago, and this is not good news.  Suddenly, disappointment meant something different.  What was I so angry with Kaleigh about?  Making mistakes?  Not understanding the consequences of certain actions?  Choosing to take a risk while she is at home and able to get support if necessary?  Isn't that what being seventeen is about?  What is wrong with me?  So I called off her grounding, asked her what she learned, and changed my own attitude.  Growing up is hard (for me).  Sigh.

I'm working on blocks for my new granddaughter's baby quilt--it's gorgeous if I do say so myself.  Brightly colored bow-ties laid out in a love ring pattern.  Picture below.  I'm kind of thinking hand quilting, but I may change my mind.  It just makes me happy to work on the blocks.  I'm taking my time, without pressure of time quilting is such a pleasure to me.  It's been a long time since I worked without the pressure of time, or without money all tied up in it, and I'm really enjoying it.  A few blocks every couple of days and I smile the whole time. 

I have to run some errands today, and I'm dropping K. off at a friend's to spend the night, so I'm free tonight too, I think I will finish quilting the class quilt and get the binding on tonight.  I will surely be glad to get that finished. 

Enough for today, maybe I will write a little about my garden tomorrow.